Ahead of 'I exist', we spoke with Charlie Marshall about their inspiration for the show, the highs, lows and searching for answers in an answerless world.
What inspired you to create this show? Why this story?
The whole show comes from my own personal experience from dealing with the loss of my mother, during the covid pandemic, whilst learning about existentialism for my final MA project. The project itself was a short film, which basically turned into a video confessional, where I would talk about how scary the philosophy was, especially when you’re faced with the idea of death and meaning in the world. Through creating the short film I was able to relate the philosophy with my life and it ended up being a therapeutic experience for me. I knew that after the film was done I wanted to continue with the idea - so I made it into a play!
What do audiences have to look forward to?
This show is full of comedic moments and adlibs. Definitely lots of moments of Rose breaking down on stage, moments of severe confusion and bursts of energy as she runs around, attempting to understand a complex philosophy, whilst being a drama student. As well as this, as she begins her descent into madness, the audience can revel in the moments of her mania as she begins to hallucinate that her cuddly toys are speaking to her.
Have there been any obstacles in the creation?
As the play comes from a place of direct truth, the obstacles in the way have been myself and my brain at times. This experience that I speak about happened a few years ago now, but as you can imagine, through rehearsals this brought back a lot of trauma. However, through the immense support from Cerys and Soeren, as friends and colleagues, I was able to push through it and come back stronger.
What inspired you to create this show? Why this story?
The whole show comes from my own personal experience from dealing with the loss of my mother, during the covid pandemic, whilst learning about existentialism for my final MA project. The project itself was a short film, which basically turned into a video confessional, where I would talk about how scary the philosophy was, especially when you’re faced with the idea of death and meaning in the world. Through creating the short film I was able to relate the philosophy with my life and it ended up being a therapeutic experience for me. I knew that after the film was done I wanted to continue with the idea - so I made it into a play!
What do audiences have to look forward to?
This show is full of comedic moments and adlibs. Definitely lots of moments of Rose breaking down on stage, moments of severe confusion and bursts of energy as she runs around, attempting to understand a complex philosophy, whilst being a drama student. As well as this, as she begins her descent into madness, the audience can revel in the moments of her mania as she begins to hallucinate that her cuddly toys are speaking to her.
Have there been any obstacles in the creation?
As the play comes from a place of direct truth, the obstacles in the way have been myself and my brain at times. This experience that I speak about happened a few years ago now, but as you can imagine, through rehearsals this brought back a lot of trauma. However, through the immense support from Cerys and Soeren, as friends and colleagues, I was able to push through it and come back stronger.